Today I celebrated my second mother’s day with my wonderful husband and daughter. I also realized that I have been a mom for about 18 months, 10 days approximately and what a difference it has made in my life. A difference I really didn’t think would occur. Not sure why, but I didn’t think it would impact my life so soon, like it did. I also realized that I have only spent 2 mother’s days with my mom since I was in the 10th grade – which was like a LONG time ago. It’s not because I don’t love my mom, just that when you work in a restaurant like I did in high school and university, you don’t get to celebrate with your mom – but everybody else’s mom instead. Then I moved to Calgary and well here we are today. So I don’t think Mother’s day is as important to me in terms of what and how I think of my mom, but more the days we do get to see each other instead. Regardless, I realized after having Finley how blessed I was to have such an amazing mom in my life – I seriously don’t know how she did it all by herself with my sister and I but she did and I think we turned out alright!
Here is a photo of the day I became a mom. I became a mom at 8:52am on October 29th, 2008. I vaguely remember the moment that a) Finley was born and b) this photo being taken. This was the first time I held Finley. I think I saw her after she was born in the surgery room but I don’t really remember. I remember Greg saying “Here’s Finley” and I tried to push her away. I remember waking up at 4am and being able to feed and change her and having no idea what I was doing. Thankfully there were some cool nurses that could help me out! I remember after I was admitted to the ICU, my mom & sister bought me a card and a framed photo of Finley to put in my room. I remember reading the card and crying because I felt guilty that I didn’t have all this love for Finley or being so happy that I was a mom not because Finley got to go home before me and I was still stuck in the dungeon Rockyview Hospital calls their ICU ward. I like to blame this on all the drugs, needles, iv’s, tubes, and medical treatment that I had gone through but I guess we will find out with QuiniferBrae*. I don’t remember the exact time that I felt like I was a mom, but I am thinking it was sometime soon after this photo was taken and we were both at home together! Regardless, this day forever changed my life – maybe not right that second, but changed it was! This was the morning of my first mother’s day in 2009. Note the shirt I was wearing. No Finley did not buy it for me. I bought it at Old Navy back in 2006 because I was having my bridal shower the week before my wedding which happened to be on Mother’s Day. I still can’t believe how small she was back then…although I am sure I was thinking “I can’t believe you are already 6 months old” ….. By the time this photo had been taken, I definitely felt like a mom, like her mom. She was so dependant on me for everything and I loved it! She was such a good baby, she made everything seem so easy! This is still Mother’s Day 2009 but at Johnston’s Canyon in Banff National Park. It’s one of my favorite hikes and it’s a nice brisk one that is great to start the hiking season off. It’s always our first of the year! I love the look on her face, she looks so totally spaced out…hahah. It was so easy “back in the day” to get Finley to stay still while you took a photo. Of course, that could be because she wasn’t very mobile either! Mother’s Day 2010! My second mother’s day! Finley refused to sit still with me while we took the photo. I know, shocking that she was the problem with the photo and NOT me! She was so full of energy and wanted to run around and be free! My mother’s day started off with breakfast in bed. I would like to say that Finley helped Greg out but truth is, we were up early and she slept in so she only woke up just as Greg gave me my meal. It was delicious and much appreciated! Look how BIG Finley is now though, it’s amazing how much they change in 12 months! Here is my mother’s day present! The bumblebee pot is from Finley via Grandma Toot and the plant in it is from Finley and QuiniferBrae*. The plant is poisonous to cats and since we have 2 who like to climb, it will be on top of my shelving unit thingy in the kitchen where they will be safe from Quincy & Luci. We had planned on heading to Banff or Heritage Park for the day but the weather forecast showed rain this afternoon and it was snowing briefly this morning after breakfast. We decided to hang out at home so while Daddy finished putting floors in the new baby’s room, Finley and I learned about team work and super heroes from Yo Gabba Gabba, we danced to The Doodlebops and shopped till we dropped downstairs in the kitchen. Greg then took me out to lunch to Boston Pizza and we all had a delicious meal! Here is Finley jumping on the couch – something she is not allowed to do but does anyway. If you can’t read it, her shirt reads “Perfect Just Like Mommy”! No I did not buy it for her. Her Great Aunty Sandy also knows that I am perfect and bought it for her! Glad to know that my perfection is noticed by others!
After lunch, we came back home and Finley had a nice nap. Greg and I had planned on watching SNL from last night but we both fell asleep after the third skit and woke up when i was over. Finley woke up and we played some more while Daddy did more work in the baby’s room. Then Greg surprised me by taking us to the Cattle Baron for supper which is probably the best steak house in Calgary. It’s reasonably priced and the quality is phenomenal! I highly recommend it if you enjoy good steak and are ever in Calgary!
All in all, today was a wonderful day spent with Greg and our best girl Finley. I can’t really put into words how she has changed my life but I am sure if you are a mom yourself, you understand what I mean. If you are not, one day hopefully you will. I sincerely hope that you all were able to spend some time with your kids and mom’s and if you couldn’t, at least made the effort to show them that you remember.
So with this, Greg, Finley, QuiniferBrae* and I are wishing Grandma Toot, Grandma Gail, Grandma Jen, Great Grandma Erna, Great Grandma Janet, and Great Grandma Annette a wonderful mother’s day and that we love and miss them lots!
*Name has been changed due to privacy until baby is born. Baby #2 will not be named QuiniferBrae